Question?

There comes a time at the end of the day, when your eyes get tired, and your body slows down but somehow- against all the odds, against all the time spent moving and working, your mind doesn't stop. It goes and goes and goes. Sometimes with greatness. Sometimes with fear. But somehow, something is always so near. It isn't always good and its most of the times bad. Its sometimes happy and sometimes sad. But lately this has been true- I've been closer to you. Each morning hasn't been a rush to get out and go but a chance to sit down and know. He has pulled me to his feet and curled me up against his chest. Letting me rest and letting me know- that this is a time to grow. A catalyst a burning of sorts. Now, he's not in cohorts. With our devilish foe, it might seem like it but- no. He is building us up from the inside out, to be a dwelling that can't help but shout THAT HE IS HERE AND HE IS GOD but then at the same time nod as we sit and listen and love. Dripping with the stuff from above, oozing and wanting to share- b/c against all odds we care and we dare! We dare to move against the crowd that screams in our mind so loud- to do and perform, expect the norm, be this way or that, no thats where its at.

we. must. be.

and feel, because this is real and we only have one shot. I'm going to make the most of what I've got.

Are you?

Going a Little Gospel

It is funny the things God brings to life when you are ready to listen. Listen to Christian songs. It is in every chorus- "God has set us free for freedom", "God is with us, he will never leave, he goes before us". There is so much promise!

All we see though, are the petty things we have to sacrifice. Finding the rhythm and balance to life requires truly submitting to God in praise and thanksgiving because we know that he will always provide.

Provide he does, and as we walk through the different challenges and parts of life, he reveals to us secrets about himself in us and how he has made us specially for a specific purpose. So often we try to change to meet the people in our life but let the people God has placed in your life complement you and not change you. You are too wonderful for that! I hope these beautiful songs lift your spirit and give you hope and new life no matter where you are in your walk today. ( :

God is Good by Regina Belle

Praise Him in Advance & the Best in Me by Marvin Sapp

Thankful tonight for so much! God has made us to be positive, happy, loving people that are the salt of the earth. How are you adding flavor and life to those in your life?

Check out Matthew 10:26-31. I especially love the last part- "And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; for you are worth more than many sparrows."[translation- you are loved! God knows and cares about every single part of you!]

Good Morning Videos

You'll think twice before texting and walking because there might be a bear! Check out this priceless gem ( ;

Nothing like pushing the drama button to add a little spice into your life! 

Here is to a man with a good spirit, good heart & a good life!

This man is wonderful ( : Shows the power of music and love. 

Have a great day everyone! It is so beautiful outside!

Welcome To:

The Best Gift in the World

 Walking into my apartment, there sat a simple white package on the table. The joy that erupted in my heart was nothing compared to the emotions of seeing the contents. Each part was perfect and perfectly marked with a little note explaining what they meant. The best part? One of my love language is gifts and that's the whole reason she sent it. So blessed to have friends who cherish my heart and build me up in how I already am and believe in who I'm going to be. Praying one day to be just as great as them!

What was in it:

1. Sweet Owl Card

2. Face Mask

3. Special NY Subway Map

4. a 1952 edition of Peter Pan

Why it was perfect:

1. Instant encouragement, love and truth

2. A sparkling citrus face mask marked with a pink, circle sticky reading "treat yourself. you are so beautiful <3"

3. A visual for all of the settings for the wonderful stories my dear friend always tells (& places to look forward to when I visit!)

4. The quintessential game of pretend featuring the beautiful Katie Voh as Wendy & myself as the daring and courageous Peter Pan was the way that Katie and I spent our preschool and early childhood till we ventured into the greater adventures of growing up and battling the every day.

Love my friends and love you!

It is EASTER!! Last night, my beautiful roommate and I colored some eggs. Ashley had the great idea to use the wax crayon to write what makes us think of Easter. For mine I wrote- Jesus Builds & Restoration.

What would be your two things that describe what Easter means to you?

Thinking back to a year ago, I was at Elevation and through a culmination of events was at a breaking point. The message was the final wedge driven into my heart to burst it open into a millllion pieces. The first part of the message focused on the verse 2 Timothy 3:5 which read "having a form of godliness but denying its power..." In that moment I realized that though I knew God that I had never accepted his power. There was a weight in my life that I had always carried that wasn't even mine. That weight was depression, anxiety, worry, self-deprecation, shame, guilt, and most of all the responsibility for all of my sin and the impossibility to perfectly perform.

I collapsed. Emotionally, that is. I wept during the rest of the service and was faced with some serious changes in my life. God has asked some pretty big things of me and I have asked some big things in return. One thing I can say is that he has always provided.

Even today when I was running late to church, God blessed me with the opportunity to sit next to one of the warmest and most loving women I have ever met. God used communion to break my heart and bring me to the quick realization of the significance of what Jesus did on the cross. The rest of the day was filled with beautiful opportunities to fellowship with and get to know people while just being me.

God has worked to strengthen the core of me and also my gratitude for each moment I am in. I am not perfect but rather am one of His great works in progress. I couldn't ask for anything more and I pray that this day you get a little closer to Jesus, who He is, and the hope and peace He provides.

Love you all & Happy Easter!

"if we are faithless,
    he remains faithful,
    for he cannot disown himself."
       2 Timothy 2: 13

Working Through Each Morning

I woke up this morning, discouraged and feeling down. Sometimes the hardest part is not to keep going but to start up again. It's all I can do to pull myself out of bed, fight the doubts, the screams of "failure" in my head, and to wash my face.

But. If I were to look at this past year and how far I've come I would realize that the way I wake up now is like Christmas compared to how it used to be. Now I have a strength that pushes me out of bed despite my wrestling mind, before... let's just say I slept a lot. I'm still working through it and its not over but it will be.

God has blessed me with some great verses and some great books.

I've just started "One Thousand Gifts" by Ann Voskamp. The first two chapters are about her real struggle to find that God is good and also the realization that despite her life seeming like a nightmare, she wants to fully live. (Two things that I have been working through lately)

Today, I saw Lamentations 3:22 on a painting I'd done and decided to read again. Usually always worth it ( : and it was!

"Yet this I call to mind
    and therefore I have hope:
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed,
  for his compassions never fail.
They are new ever morning;
    great is your faithfulness.
I say to myself,'The Lord is my portion;
    therefore I will wait for him.'"
      Lamentations 3:21-24

Love you guys and hope you have a great, joy filled day!

His Love hasn't failed me yet

Disparaging day
walking away
from what I once loved

Looking for God
behind here and from there
under rocks
and in leaves
hoping to fare
better than the doubts
that run quickly about
in my head and out

till up turned one little rock
and then two
till I don't know what to do
as my heart is overwhelmed with joy

in the park then
and now, sipping my chamomile tea.

"Praise be to the Lord,
   for he showed me the wonders of his love
   when I was in a city under siege."
       Psalm 31:21