Messy

These two songs have been my heart beat lately. How wonderful to have a song that captures a single moment and yet it still dives deeper to reveal desires in your heart you're still working on.

Completely
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uOs9M095dhM

Lord, I'm Ready Now
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBUQqLp6N24

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Beautiful things
are indeed

messy

like tufts of flowers
stuck here and there

if you looked closely
would you see the care
the intentionality
the melody
and harmony alike

but like a strike

mess

is pressed
against the flowers
It's letters
burning
a hole

some of the beauty
stolen
and charred

growth
barred

heart scarred

and so those things just wait
for a special date
of hope
of a day
of not having to cope
but being able to release

please, I pray

and each day
there is a new way
until
BAM

here I am
in the middle of the mess
medicine to the test
realizing the complexity
of things in me

the mess all along
has been so incredibly strong
and though I see the beauty
in a twisting and twirling tree
and admire it with glee
my own twists and turns
made me yearn
for straightness

for a mind
that would find
a task
and do it
without getting lost in
after
and through it

and so
the invisible new friend
reared its head
but not out of anger
but confusion

what is it you've said?

I have what?

are you sure?

the cure?

counseling
coaches
prescriptions
and more

and like a door
hope walks in
with a big grin
saying see
there's nothing wrong with me

this is normal
and it is hard
so lets pick up this shard
this burnt mess

and call it blessed

give it water and help it grow
and help others to know

I have ADHD

and I am thankful
and I am blessed
because I am me.