Pt. 1
Reassurance drops in
like a board sliding down a wave
turning to the left with a sharp right
the line continuing
out of sight
as the wave threatens to curl
and then hurl you far into the underwater atmosphere
but it is here
in this moment of hesitation
and waiting
where the wave turns over or holds
and the world seems a perfect mold
a perfect fit for you
Pt. 2
Forever have I fought
against the world
and I will not give in today
no more will it have the last say
I cannot be perfect
or more loved
but am grateful and thankful and glad
the world makes me sad
the things people say
and the way
they love some but not all
but here is the fall
where I tumble down
a big dark hall
and get lost in thought
and am onslaught
with a "need" to change
to be more like them
like the rest
but this is the test
to stay just this special way
that God created me for every day
Pt. 3
You walk away
down a soft path with a strong stick
to guide your way
you say too much
but not enough
and I do not know you
like a fleeting glance
I miss the chance
and feel it is my fault
and try to undo the knot
of who and why and how
we aren't together now
and God says no
but I don't know
what to do and where to go
because all I can do is stare
at the times in my head
like a recurring dream
I want to scream
to make it all pass away
but then I would not be able to say
it is finished
it is done
but this,
this debating
is no fun
it is not right or an intended sight
so i put up the fight
to make right these thoughts of you.
The devil would try to lie to you and say that you are never enough but the truth is that you are ALWAYS enough b/c he who is in you is better than the world that is against you! It sounds like a cheesy line but it really is the truth, and its something I've come to know from the kind of life that not only knocks you down and drags you out the door, but the one that keeps tearing at your soul till you can't go on anymore and all that is left is God, holding your heart and hand- giving you hope. That's the God we serve!
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