The Unsolved Mystery of the Queen

Love came down
like an ethereal crown
forever to sit and be
and as I gazed
at the girl
I was amazed that it was me

"How could this be?"
I asked
as he took this crown to clean

he said,
"My dear
I've held you near
a queen you were always meant to be"

"But what about my failures
my doubts and my dismay.."

and before more I could say
he waved it all away

and said
"Whether you curse, or yell or scream
this crown is no dream

you are my beloved
both now and forever
and together we will weather
the storm your life might be

knowing that through each moment
you are one step
more free
and my dear, that is the only way you should be

sometimes it may seem alright
and other times oppressively tight
but look to me
and you will see
that I have always intended
that you be free"

to the sweet man I asked,
"But what if I don't feel like a queen
if I am rude, or drop the ball, or worse- mean?
have I lost my crown
and in this sea I'll drown
struggling, tired, tied"

"No my dear, I'm always here
and you are always free
those times you feel so tied
just look beside you to see
that I am loosening the chain
that has wrapped around your heart
and before you can even start
to say why, or how, or what
there is no rut too deep or hole to large
no payment, no charge

just let go and look to me- look to the sea, the stars, the way
the grass tumbles in the wind
but bounces back again
look at the twinkle in the child's eye
and the ferociousness with which he always cries
and look inside and see
the greatness you can be
when you are flying free.

The world will try to tell you
the things to do
to hold tight to this freedom
but this freedom does not end,
no, my friend,
once started
it will forever be
and that my dear, is why you will always be a queen."

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What is the freedom you are searching for in your life? What is the source of that freedom? What are you holding onto in hopes that one day that freedom will be reached? Where do you find hope in the midst of stress, pain, bliss or worry?

I was reading today about how God's love is not conditional- i.e. it does not change, ever, that sometimes in order to forgive others we have to look inside ourselves and forgive ourselves first. These great nuggets of truth paired with my church's sermon about having those hard and truthful conversations with God and others about what we are really struggling with in the depths of our hearts birthed this poetic conversation. It was not something I sat and conspired to write but something that rather was born line by line out of the truth of these thoughts and the implications behind it. True love sets us free and we don't have to be perfect to obtain it but rather we just have to seek his face. Praying you seek his face today in all you do, out of a heart of thankfulness, and a mind of peace. Love you all!

-e