What is true?

It is funny how you see the world.

Everyone sees the world differently. Some who are depressed see the world in more of a gray scale. Some who are happy see the world as everyone being happy and never rocked by anything. Some don't really see the world at all. Rather, they see a distorted sense of reality. There exists within them many convincing voices and the very air seems to bend and break at will and not as would make scientific sense. Our minds and our experiences shape our view of the world.

What is your view of the world? What is your view of yourself? Where does God fit into the mix of all of these things?

I am in the middle of one of the potentially hardest times of transition I have and will possibly ever experience. You know what? I love it.

I love that every day is hard and yet good because I am learning to really see God. Life and faith are no longer easy to coincide. Nor is it easy to live in grace when religiousness/righteousness creeps in, saying," You need to do this this and this or you won't be this." So many lies and so many obligations. It is a hard time for sure of fishing out the lies and pushing them aside to accept the truth. So many times we talk about others truths. We say that to be politically correct.

What is true? God is helping us to figure life out one step at a time. I know it from the connections in my life. From how God has restored my life not with easy and perfect moments but with hard and loving solutions and moments/seasons of growth. I know it from how God provided a great and dynamic job that challenges me, a community that embraces me, a family that loves me, a church that restores me, and a man that adores, respects, and supports me. I have been very loved by God through my circumstances and by my community. I know this is not always the case. That God shows different things to different people in different ways. For some reason everything seems to go wrong and there seems no point. But I have learned that when you seek God with all of your heart you will find Him. God does not answer all of your questions at once and some not at all but He is there with you, guiding you.

On top of all that- He dismisses your fears. He challenges you to face your fears but not in the sense of walking into a room full of spiders or entering back into an abusive relationship- no, He lovingly provides similar but smaller scale situations that slowly chip away at fears grip on your heart. He has done this in time with me and I am so thankful.

God speaks to us in so many ways. He uses books with characters that are like us to help us realize we aren't alone and that we can do it. He uses movies with key lines or quotes that stick out to us in that exact moment to say- "hey, listen up, you need this". He guides you forward in community to be challenged not to be different but to be more you, to look at your strengths at your weaknesses and to God working in you.

Your life is brilliantly orchestrated and you are in for a wild and wonderful ride.

Happy Wednesday!