Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Most Beautiful Commercial in the World

Perfect Wish

sometimes
I wish
that I could swim
like a fish

dive deep below

where no one would know

and oh the places I would go

deep
where lights eerily gleamed

or high
where the sunlight streams
and all you see
is the occasional

behemoth

mouth wide
catching its prize
slowly
dancing in the rays

or become small
and spend time
where the kelp is tall
and the fish swim in and out

or where the waves
make a shout
and everything clings
grabbing at the nutrients
each wave brings

oh to be a fish
what a marvelous
and perfect wish.

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“Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a net that was thrown into the sea and gathered fish of every kind."

Matthew 13:47

Guest blog ( :

Luke 10:25-37New International Version (NIV)

The Parable of the Good Samaritan

25 On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. “Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?”

26 “What is written in the Law?” he replied. “How do you read it?”

27 He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’[a];and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[b]”

28 “You have answered correctly,”Jesus replied. “Do this and you will live.”

29 But he wanted to justify himself,so he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?”

30 In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31 A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32 So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33 But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34 He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. 35 The next day he took out two denarii[c] and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’

36 “Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?”

37 The expert in the law replied, “The one who had mercy on him.”

Jesus told him, “Go and do likewise.”

Footnotes:

Luke 10:27 Deut. 6:5
Luke 10:27 Lev. 19:18
Luke 10:35 A denarius was the usual daily wage of a day laborer (see Matt. 20:2).

New International Version (NIV)

Monday, August 24, 2015

To Wait is to Do

Words

drop heavy on my heart

and yet

so quickly

depart

how to help

how to express

how to give

and yet as I live

with each breath

that is

I feel something new

that drawing to do

towards something new

and towards anything but here

truly here

not lazy

not sleeping

here

breathing in the twirling air

the dragon breath of her pants

the kicks of his feet

the frustration from her running

and almost being hit for the umpteenth time

frustrated from the past

and not knowing

or changing my eyes to see

so much frustration in me

that is what is here

what is near

like a crab trap buoy I float

things lie beneath and things above

but i

tethered

and slopped on

am stuck

and as muck is passed from the waves

to my head

I have to remember what You have said

I have to breathe

and believe

I have to bounce

and receive

and as the muck

slips on by

I know what it is to try

to do and to fail

to cry and to wail

but also to breathe and to do

and to give it up to You

and so as my dog

runs

while my heavy body

pulls and whines

the air hard to find

I choose to breathe and do

and give it up to You

maybe this special training

is something in parenting I'll do too ( :

“I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchmen for the morning.”
PSALMS 130:5-6

Monday, August 17, 2015

32 weeks as of tomorrow.

What a journey- only 8 more weeks to go.

Pregnancy has been no joke.

It's as if God has used my dreams (so vivid and wild) to address all of my lingering issues. Then, when that had been accomplished he brought it into my family life. Now that that has been addressed, back to dream world.

I'm thankful for the process. I'm thankful not to be like a stagnant pool, collecting odds and ends and foaming up with a putrid smell. I feel like a tiny stream stretched over a long way. Bounding over rocks and stumps and pulling little things along with me. In the discomfort, there is beauty and great wealth. Some days I wake up and anxiety rolls over too. Those days there is no place to hide- everything in me is a mess. Other days I feel so confident and strong and free. The nights I don't sleep often invite Anxiety to come hang out the next morning.

Despite the stretching and growing and stresses, pregnancy is a miracle. Every kick I feel is like a breath of fresh air. It makes me so happy and in an odd way, makes me feel loved. I can't wait to meet this little guy. I can't wait to see if he has a quirky smile or if his eyes twinkle. I can't wait to hear his laugh and feel his little arms grab onto my neck, nuzzling in.

I can't wait to push him into the water of life and see how he swims. All the while trusting and knowing that he will have the best teacher beside him, guiding him like He guided me. I can't wait to meet Jesus in the rough moments- and in some ways for the first time, truly understand His love. I can't wait to be perfectly imperfect and for the first time in my life- to stop.

to stop trying to do everything

to stop trying to be everywhere and there for everyone

to really let go.

As Tripp, our whirlwind of a dog, lays stretched at my feet I am able to rest.

In the background, plays a meditation.

Each time it stops anxiety starts jumping in my heart and pulling at my hair. I restart the meditation quickly and am able to return to the life of writing.

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I've always thought of this blog as a way to be honest. A way to let others know that they are not alone in their messiness. As I grow as woman and as a Christian, I am amazed at the messiness around me. I'm surprised too by the beauty in it.

Hope you have a blessed day!

e

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Baby list

Google docs won't work for my phone so here
goes the list for all of my lovely friends that I work with ( :

Things we need:
Jungle Jam CDs (christian stories)

In case you're thinking I wonder if we have
this or that- look below ( :

Things we have:
Wipes
Bamboo nursing pads (day and night)

Crib Sheets (Aqua, white, light grey, or beige)

Thermometer

Boogie wipes

From here to now to you cd by Jack Johnson

Stick up shades for car

Clothes

Bibs

Clothe diapers (a lot of them)

Wet bag for diapers (small & Large)
High chair

Baby monitor
Boppy

Bumbo floor seat

Baby Mirror for car

Mobile

Jogging stroller

Infant stroller

Convertible car seat

Infant car seat and base

Crib

Blankets

Jungle gym for floor

Pack and play

Wet the bed sheets

Towels (hooded, regular and wash cloths)

Baby lotion

Baby shampoo

Baby rockers

Baby bath

Teething toys

Carrying slings (2)

Bottle dryer

Bottles

Noise/sound machine

Diaper changing pad and table

Love you all!

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

JHC

Your father works
the dog barks
I sit
restlessly

waiting
for that free
breath
of there

I know that there
is a temperament
vastly changing

but as our lives are slowly
ranging
to include more
and less

I can't help but feel so blessed

to know the little I do
of the little
infinite you

a kick here
a kick there

already my heart swells beyond compare
and yet the Lord has so much more in store

oh this beautiful thing we are waiting for...

you
handsome, kind hearted, strong

you
Christian, lover of good, calm

you
funny, creative, adventurous

I am so inexplicably
with every moment passing
ready for this!

//

His song ( :

Beautiful Things Are Messy