PULL ME THROUGH

Something in me just wants to write and write
until everything is right
until I am able to believe
all that you have placed inside of me

because now I cannot fully see
but just like Joshua
I will go and do
and see things through
without question or a moments glance
I will give each of these things a chance

in every moment be
so that you might use all of me
that my purpose be fulfilled
just as you have all along willed
and planned

I sit safely in your hand
though the world around me tumbles
and at times it seems you mumble
I know I haven't left that place

your hands cup my face
and say
"you will make it through this day"

so whether alive I wake
and ready to face what might come
or its that sad and weary some
there you will be
ready to help me

knowing that this is just a time and a season
with a perfect and specific reason
and in times when I forget
you teach me something new yet

I still don't know fully
all you are churning
or what is in my heart that is burning
but bring on the pain
if it will one day bring the refreshing rain
of you because that is enough to pull me through.

*from the archives of my email, only shared it w/ my beautiful sister before