Raw

Looking out the window
I see
Jersey boys
looking back at me

No.
This will not do

Who
is it that now pursues

few

but rather
more guys scatter
the precious stones that matter
these girls with strength
who love at length

they throw away
or worse, destroy
why, why are you this boy?
what do you do, to do this for you?

hate burrows
deep within my chest
needing to be dealt with
a wealth
of worries
to be found
but nothing sound
a hurt mound

of stories
of friends
family
my own

not alone
in this hurt
and this pain
when will the rain

STOP

a need to be on top
to be away
Lord, to say
it is done
and it is

if only this one wish
Lord, that guys would truly
go after the girl
and for who she is
and not what she will do
or what they can "get"
because it wasn't given yet
and yet they take
what a mistake

that they do not pay
for
but she is left sitting
weeping on the floor

Lord, I cannot deal
I cannot bear
the truth
you bare

please help me through
this pain I never knew
till it wasn't me
but you
my dear friend
time and time again
seeming no way to win

but these boys continually pin
and point at a person
that you aren't and never will be
if only they could see
the person in front of me
when I have a coffee with you
or we roll down a hill or two
with a little girl
but they don't know
and never will
the beautiful girl that rolls down hills
to give friendship to someone alone
no they'll never know

and they don't deserve
that
mmm they are scat
absolute scat
and if only they sat
in front of me
and i could tell
no i could yell
in their face
and give them the hell
they deserve

but what nerve
have i to go against
the one to whom anger belongs
and to whom i try desperately to lift up a song
of praise
of understanding
and God forces his way through
deep into my heart
the start of breaking free
from this sorrow that I see

A song that gives me hope and peace when I'm in the middle of a place: