Believing in the Face of Uncertainty

Have you ever felt a stirring in your heart that goes a bit like this:

I cannot do it. I swear, Lord, I know you can do anything but I literally cannot. Or God, I have so much to express and, Lord, to tell it all would absolutely overwhelm the poor individual on the other end?

That is what happens every day I feel like. God completely transforms my day from seemingly important and hard and then fills my life with so much goodness, restoration and hopeful realizations that I want to spend the rest of the day sharing it. Whatever this means, I need to find a balance. I can't take it and I like my friends too much.

Thankful for the people who pour into my life- who throw paper airplanes at me that have written on them "sending a hug your way ( :", who spend time just listening and sharing life, who go on a run with you, and those friends you haven't seen a while but get a chance to via skype. Life is good and I am thankful, and its all because of God's incredible work in me.

He can change your heart and answer your prayers. I hope and pray you believe that today. I'm still figuring things out but he hasn't let me down yet and I don't believe he ever will.

"Joshua son of Nun and Caleb son of Jephunneh, members of the scouting party, ripped their clothes and addressed the assembled People of Israel: "The land we walked through and scouted out is a very good land-very good indeed. If God is pleased with us, he will lead us into that land, a land that flows, as they say, with milk and honey. And he'll give it to us. Just don't rebel against God! And don't be afraid of those people. Why, we'll have them for lunch! They have no protection and God is on our side. Don't be afraid of them!"
     Numbers 14:6-9 (The Message)

Breathing

I was sweeping up around the apartment and jamming out to Pandora when it turned to a song I recognized and I started to sing it. Before I knew it I was belting the song at the top of my lungs. Glad no one was around, I then started to listen to the words.

"I wanted to change the world, instead I sleep.."

Have you ever had one of those days when life attacks you in all sorts of ways and you have to fight for peace? But then the song goes on to say "All you can do is keep breathing, now". Some days, like today, all you can do is keep breathing. What a beautiful realization that sometimes we just have to be. Life isn't perfect or always good, but there is always a good song to sing!

Check out All I Can Do Is Keep Breathing by Ingrid Michaelson, one of my favorites. 

Hope it blesses you like it did me ( :

Wonderfully you

Do you ever
sit and stare?
Watching the people walking around you
acutely aware

of how you aren't them
and can never be
and in that thought
you're somehow free

and torn
this instant thorn
to stab and twist
why?

I wish...

and an onslaught of thoughts
this perception has brought

to be like the ones I see
but only then I wouldn't be me

I might not like the crowd
to be the center
to be so loud
but in that quiet I can be
exactly who I was meant to be

to talk to the one who feels left out
or the one who likes to scream and shout
but deep down feels some serious things
that's what my personality brings

and so to be as I see and not as I am
would make me utterly
an unhappy scam

caught in a lie
that this life would sell
no more my heart of this love would tell

the one who has captured me
heart and soul
and in my saying yes
has redeemed and freed and made me whole

But
it is plain and simple
an absolute fact
I am me
and so long as I'm pushing the limits
and reaching each one
then my work is done,
Son! (threw that in for fun!)

Hope you realize how wonderful you are and how much God loves you for you! You can always be a better you but you can never be someone else.

You are perfectly and wonderfully made.

For all of you who have trouble falling asleep like I sometimes do, here is a beautiful song to nod off to:


Perpetuum Mobile by Penguin Orchestra

May God bless you and keep you tightly in his arms tonight ( :

You Make Everything New

As the rain poured
down
the world seemed to
for a moment drown
and then
the clouds lifted away
and the sun comes back
as if to say

hey! it's a new day
and it is
and with it comes an amazing
joy and bliss
because we are His
and he provides
no more to hide
but to express
and live
and thrive

filled with goodness
peace
and more
this is what life
is for
and it is ours to share
and give
so bless someone with love today
and you will truly live.

If you have never heard this song, check out Beautiful Things by Gungor. It is absolutely beautiful! Hope you have a great day!