A different kind of love

A different kind of love
not of trinkets
or of tricks
or of dangling sticks
that reach in and catch
the most wonderful guy

no this is a different kind of love
a love that laughs
a love that hurts
that holds each other in the worst
that gives us hope
that gives us life
that helps us trudge
through every strife
and yes
we digress
and sometimes regress
but always dip back into the pail

and yet that love pales
in comparison to you
you who set the world in motion
who slid the sun into place
who designed each line
of every face
and dot in each speck of dirt
what work!
and yet we grumble
and we fuss
our thankfulness we hush
in exchange for wasted words
and wantings
regrets
and hauntings

but now, Lord, now I see your face
and my rightful place
here and now in front of you
you who I have known
and have not always seen or felt or heard
even in all of reading your word
and inadequate I sometimes feel
but that is not real

what is real, despite my doubts, is you
you who gets me through
whose hand I feel
and who constantly provides
even when I try to hide
and run
or get lost in the fun
of liv-ing
but you
you love me yet
and you never forget

how you made me. 

Proverbs 31:10-31

Beauty
trances
the vast expanses
of the world
between
my heart and head
rivers
and roads
sweep through
and carry
thoughts to marry
to love
to do
to fine the perpetual
always
you

but as I search
I find
that I am
momentarly
blind-ed
by the complexity
of all I must see and do
but truthfully these needs are few

the world a few
bright colors and things
and the worry
that we bring
brings lies
that twist
and turn
and burn
our hopes and our dreams
till they sizzle
and scream
for us not to let go

we know

and so we burn
the lies that yearn
to do us off
and make us cough
under the sickening smell
that time will tell

was wrong

so sing a song
so light and true
that could only
and always
bring us back to you

simplify your life
to loving
through worry
sorrow
and strife
and in that
become the best
daughter, and mother
and sister and wife.

It won't be so long

A drive by glance
heart stab commense
every muscle
tenses
spasms
freezes
and the other line
click
Liz?

my loved one
so sweet
and kind
a great find
and blessing too

what am i thinking about
but you
and how you fit
into it
how these new men
fare
do they compare?
not really
so are they right
or am i still putting up
a losing fight

Lord knows
my heart and my mind
knows my kind
my ticks
and my tacks
and the things that pull me back
but he is shoving me forward
more gently than I allow
but loving me all the way

showed by the
friends I saw today
I am
not
nor will I ever be
far
from him who saves
my heart
when it starts
to pitter
and patter
and freeze
he sweeps in
like a gentle
breeze
sweeps me off of my feet
to a happy
dancing street
filled with smiling faces
blossoms
and song

it won't be so long.

Think Tank

There will be all sorts of things to be shared today!

When I was going for a run, I was running through all sorts of things in my mind. As I passed a teenage guy with hat cocked, pants sagging and ball in hand, I thought," What significance do we have as a person.. and is our life worth anything?" My mind instantly flashes to an image of me tripping and falling into traffic and dying, leaving me feeling pretty hopeless at my response. But just as that wave of darkness came crashing through, it was swiped away by an influx of square pictures of people. People impacted and people met, and people of the future.

What hope do we have in that? Now something to vet out- is it more important to be who we are and in that do things we were meant to do OR to discipline ourselves to act a certain way to be a somewhat different and "better" us?

Think with me today ( : There is so much to consider!

Life Speaks to Your Heart

Have you ever been surrounded by a sentiment? Where you can't seem to escape an idea/phrase?

All around are the words," Keep moving forward." Not literally, but in actions, opportunities, people, moments and more.

Take for example this video. It has been on my youtube home page for ages and what does it say but to let go, stop thinking and to accept yourself:

What are the things God is speaking to your heart through the things in your life?

Peering through the darkness...

Music fades
to overlay
the news
and friend
there are things you don't know
about me
and may never know
but love will get us there
and as you learn my heart
which I know you know
as you strung together
and overlayed
each fibre
there is hope
if only i can cope
in the moments of darkness
coffee inlaid
the price already paid
and yet i scrape together coins
to pay
you say,"
I love you."
or at least I hope you do
some things
I never knew
about you

who are you?

Great Things Ahead

It's funny how you think that life is supposed to be this perfect, everything fits kind of life. The truth is- it is, just not at all as we think. I thought that my job would be the end all for me but really what I found was that it was a bad fit. Now this realization did not fit with my view of what I should "do" but it made me reassess who I "am" & how God made me.

Meeting my mail man, Chris, yesterday reinforced just that. He had that sweet southern drawl of Forrest Gump but was a beautiful black man from South Carolina. I asked if he loved his job and with the most genuine smile he replied," I do." Chris went on to tell me about how he loved the country life and where he lived and how he had come about his job. It wasn't planned or lifelong a dream, just something that he got to and realized fit perfectly.

Meeting Chris was such a blessing and I am not surprised, God is looking out for us after all. I see that more and more in how he moves me through life and in the new people I meet. Hope he guides you to a happy place today and that you don't fight it. Praying for you!

Tomorrow

Thwarted
my heart
is
heavy
hurting
holding
off on you

you who would tell me what to do and how
but all I see is
now
and how it isn't
as I want it to be

but you have set us
free
and here I will not stay
and that is proven
every day

Thank you, father

// // // 

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you back from captivity."
       Jeremiah 29:11-14

Not Sure

Surrounded by lovely
ladies
and loving men
who show you grace from where you've been
and where you are
if you are far
from the mark

but that's the spark
this love
that helps you to go and go
when your gas tank is far below
where it should be
or ever was

but love

love
that four lettered, fettered, battered word
by every moment
into which many are hurled
and come out with it still
grasping tight
and yet so free
to let love go
and let love be

to truly see
others in their self
and in their script
and not by expectations
tripped
or shoved

but very

greatly and gently

loved.

*so thankful for dear friends in my life who love me for me and who I so much love to love!!

Love petition/declaration

Safe love
is not a real love
the kind you grab and hold
that fits the perfect mold
or so you think
but when you get to the brink
of what safe love
is
and does
and acts
and exists
you realize it really is

false

an idea built up
to be destroyed
manipulated
and toyed

till each partner changes
to meet the other
and in doing so smother
and fold
squishing the mold
till a blob
they blend

no thank you, my friend

i will take daring love
pursued by a passionate few
with two
that do what others dare not do
like talk
and laugh
and point and play
walk together through every day
enjoying it more
knowing nothing in store
but really knowing you
that's what daring lovers do

and Lord, that's what I'm getting into with you

isn't it? my heart beats for this
and I would be remiss
to sell out for safety
when our world is so big
and you want us to take a step so small
but that will raise us so tall

is that love or career
or am I even near?
I know that you hear, and see, and feel
and my heart you continually heal
but hold me tonight, please do
because I need to be close to you.

//

Desperately
tenderly wanting
the thing that has been haunting
that love so far eschewed
in a request from you
reminders drip
and drop
with a plop
on my lap
on my head
and in my ear
and my heart
there is no place to start
and in that
desperation grows
but you remind me that I know

you

Faith Crisis

Turning, chipping, molding, picking, pushing, prodding
through
big black splatter
on a white textured wall

tripping backwards
after an already eventful fall
sometimes lifted up
and in those moments light
and bright
and wonderfully lit

but then the world
shoves
it actually hits

hard with blackness
pain
and pride
causing my tail
to tuck

my life to hide
and sleep
behind these walls
I creep
slowly
pushing through and around.. and..

RUN

Run fast for the safe ground
sing my heart to yours
and you, you open doors

or at least I pray you do
and pray it through
knowing you are working still

hoping to be in your will
Lord you are good and great
today
and in this craziness, I still pray
because
no matter what
I believe that you are.

Happy Fourth!

torn behind expectations
disappointments
and hope
but out goes the boxes
of records
and of lies
out goes the many questions
of how
what
and why
out goes anything
other than you
and today and on the fourth of july
is the cleaning has got to do

freedom for all!

our heart and our mind
no feat is to tall
we will be changed
restored and revealed
our heart and mind for our healed
so on this day hold tight to your guns
pull out the fireworks
and have some fun

let yourself free to live this one life
and find a joy despite the strife!

Love you & HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!!!