Saturday, September 20, 2014

Ya Mon, Jamaica

words stop up
with each sip of my cup
mango
intoxicated
with dextrose
drowning in the cold cold mix

oh what a twist
on such a precious
gift

what a rift

//

Going to Jamaica we were so incredibly excited. It celebrated the end of a season of crazy planning and the beginning of our lifetime partnership. As we flew over and watched island after beautiful turquoise island our anticipation bubbled up in our chest. A great things because the air pressure was at times overwhelming.

We landed in Jamaica to be greeted by line after line to pass into the Jamaican world. It looked like something out of Flipper, the movie, with bright colors, somewhat dilapidated but definitely beachy. Once we were free and had found our driving company we were met with a drink, and our driver. He talked to us the whole time and showed us the Hip Street and shared music interests and family information. That was the first time we learned how hard it was for Jamaicans to leave the country. A visa is crazy expensive and you aren't always guaranteed to pass even though you paid all the money and did nothing wrong.


Each day was filled with an adventure. One day we traveled on an infamous catamaran to Dunn's River Falls. We stopped and snorkeled on the way only to see the out skirts of the reefs and to realize that the black sea urchins are pretty much evil/will attack you. It was beautiful to sail on the boat and to look down at the clear blue water.

The Dunn Rivers Falls itself was an adventure. We had to hold hands with strangers connected to our guide who took us up a path he had surely taken millions of times. At first glance it looks insane and only increases in insanity as you go and yet we all made it to the top having had "back massages", a "slide" and many more funny adventures created to add to the trip. The way home was a party. I told them I didn't drink but they pushed a beer on Tyler- too funny. It was okay for me not to drink but not for Tyler. Everyone was pretty inebriated and drinking (I had been warned by friends) which led to some hilarious moments. A larger bellied man attempting to pole dance/work the crowd with his hilarious dance moves. It was a good time for dancing but we were glad to leave and regain our hearing.

We went snorkeling on site at the hotel and that was a beauty. They gave us no real warning talk except to follow our guide and follow we did. We did not stay on the outskirts but went right over and in. We were surrounded by reefs teeming with different types of life. There were sea anemones everywhere and fish darting in and around. At one point I was following close behind our guide when just like in finding nemo there was one jelly fish and then a million tiny jellies. I'm freaking out because usually I recognize them and I don't be he is leading us straight to them. He comes up for breath and I ask if they sting and he says no mon with a non expressive face and goes right back down. Okay, I think, I can do this. And suddenly you see on some of the larger jellies this light pulsating around them. It was beautiful! And then to our right was a moon jelly. It was like time had slowed down and we were kids. I tried to dive down near the reef knowing I would regret it if I didn't. The first few times killed pressure wise. After a while I was able to go down and swim through the grasses to smaller rocks only to see TWO big evil black sea urchins peeking up at me. I swam quickly to the top and pointed to alert Tyler to their presence. It was a great adventure I was sad to see end.

The rest of our time there was spent eating delicious food and learning Patois (or attempting to).

It's hard to write about everything.

The people are beautiful and funny and healthy and kind. They have a great sense of humor and enjoy every moment. The smell of the incense (musk) filled every corner of the hotel with a home like scent. Our favorite part, hands down was Ahh.. Ras Natango Gallery and Garden where we made good friends, learned about an amazing family, met with a beautiful woman Marcia, and had lunch with some police officers during a crazy rain storm.

It was an answered prayer. The night before I was telling Tyler how much my heart hurt being at the resort. It seemed like such a gentrified area. We were given everything while outside the gates people lived in what seemed like extreme poverty. My heart yearned to really know Jamaica and to know how to help. Here we were talking with our new favorite Jamaican family and police officers about real Jamaican problems. To add to that they were talking about things that could be done to make a difference. Ahh.. Ras Natango employs Jamaicans and if they want to go to school of sorts they help pay the way and also pay them for working monday through friday when they truly only come to work on friday because of school. They also help clothe and take care of them. They were an amazing family and it was such a blessing to be there.

We also ventured out at night to see the Luminous Lagoon, another night had dinner on the beach, and another night explored in our really nice clothes a little strip of rock to find a star fish, debris covered sea urchin and the evil black sea urchin. Which really isn't evil, it just had this creepy vibe about it so that even I couldn't overcome to grab. Turns out if you come close they will reach out and poke/stab you. No good! So not evil just dangerous. A cool thing we discovered on our fancy probably illegal walk were chiton's. I never knew what they were/looked like but their armor like top and snake like edges were so incredibly fascinating.

It was an incredible trip where we got to see the best of luxury and the best of Jamaica. We fell in love with real Jamaica and our friends are constantly in our thoughts.

Here is one of my favorite Jamaican songs I have loved for some time. It mirrors our talks with the police officers about the hard nature of their job and how the youth have no good things to occupy their time with (because of cutting of art and other things in school) and it shows with the increase in violence/bad activities.

An amazing people with an amazing heart. They are genuine through and through and loving and vulnerable kind.

One love!



Friday, August 15, 2014

Our Story

Twinkling stars
put on their too-toos
and they start dancing around in squares

saying look at me
I can fly
not knowing why

they are going in angles
and
they say honk honk

"I like that"
the dog says
walking in the door
and then the cat says
"why do you have too-toos on stars?"

"You have to have bows too!

Did you know that?

Now chop chop
or you'll get my claw for dinner
and you will be sorry
so get those bows on your head
or you will be the dogs lunch and my dessert.

you hear me?"

The end!

Bella, Jenna, & Liz


Our Poem

Little holes
open up
expand
gaping empty
in the land
stretched taught

as all is naught

and love is brought
swirling down
with the tiniest leaf
a memory
like a relief
enters in

//

a rainbow
streaming through
something new
a beautiful angel

and she says
i am so pretty
and witty
and wise
look at my beautiful eyes

i smell like flowers
and fresh late showers
and cookie powers

with which i spread my sweetness and love
a rainbow gift from above

and then I dance around the sun
and invite the stars to my house
and they wake all our household mouses

and the mouses with bows on their heads
jump around in circles
cheering "yay stars
from so very far
we are happy you are here

you are so shiny
my eyes hurt
and you make me want to run around in circles"

I like drinking in
your famous fountain
of dancers

that jump back and forth
and all around
sparkling and twinkling
and making funny sounds

like honk
and doodlebop.

Love,

Bella, Jenna, & Liz





Monday, August 11, 2014

R. W. RIP

A voice I held so dear
in laughing he felt so near
and always
in my childhood memories

there is no way to describe
this man
who can?
his words so timely
and full of wit
who brought all of the world
to listen and sit

as his voices changed
pitches rearranged

character
after character
he became

as he bounced
and he flounced
and flitted

there seemed none
more fitted
with joy
and yet this man
was not always so

but this is the man we know

whose gift
might have been his curse
but his words
were rarely rehearsed

each quick quip
gently left his tongue
to soothe your ears
and lift your heart
and give each moment a second start

there is in sadness some
at this end
of our good but distant friend

may we always pray
for those we know
and pray in hope and love they grow

Robin Williams, we will miss you so.

//

RIP my dear friend, Robin Williams, that I never met but always felt like I knew. My father looks and acts like you. Humor is a brilliant gift. You are loved. Always and forever.


Tuesday, August 5, 2014

25 Days ( :

Sitting down to breathe
I see the things I "need"
and then my spirit Heeds
to the Spirit
in me

to pause
and to be
to let myself... free

..

too many times
I get lost in my head
laying on the floor
things to be said
poured over
and spilled out

feeling all the voices
explicitly shout-ing

competing
judging

stretching
shaming

framing
laming
my heart

and I start to lose myself

but he comes and sits
and listens through all of it
eyes so sad
not the least bit mad
and yet
I always ask if he is
as if wishing to know
if that anger with time will grow
as I deeply fear he will
but the more I spill
the more his heart grows
and the more I know
he will never change

he will love and support me
and I can "rest under" his leadership
as I seek God in all things
He says "be still
one word is all I need"

I ask for help
begging on my knees
and Tyler lifts me up
my answered prayer
and like a cup
I am filled
and love spills
not thoughts

how much love this love has brought...

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

The Nightmare

Dreams swirl in my head
the kind you have in bed
but with me

well

they never leave

so begins the car ride
following friends
and then
at the roads end
appears a twirling cloud
dangerous and loud

we divert
off
to find a safe place
to hold onto
to hide our face

we move from stone poles
to basement holes
walking about a house

many distracted
my friend detracted
with a constant wandering
while I'm wondering
where will it hit?
will the ceiling collapse?

and suddenly I have
a dog
and when it runs away
I discover my two scared cats

fancy that

so we hide
the storm arrives
somehow my love dies
and disappears
and as sorrow nears
they tell me I'm dead too

All my friends are dead as well
but this they tell
me
it is swell 
that we died now and together can be
so incredibly happy

we laugh and we have fun
and enjoy a few car rides

and then
a switch
and in enters darkness
a death warrant on our already perished heads
into the basement we return
and filled with water
we yearn to the bottom
hard to breath
but in lays something we need
and one of us kicks to the top
and says we need to stop

they have come to do us off

and so they come

an asian man I've seen in the movies before
he walks in and on a notebook
he pushes the number next to mine and I start to fade away

but I notice that though I've died
I'm still here
and my lungs scream for air
as my second number appears on his screen
and he pushes on my lungs

I try to pretend like I'm dying
but then I am
I push him off and say,"
I thought I was already dead"

and up I awoke, heart filled with dread, brought into reality
from a dream filled with plot
with details
and with characters

what is the story I am living
in the night?
If only it would be filled with light

and so that is my prayer
that God would take me there
above these feelings and thoughts
and what ever darkness has been brought

to see his face
to be in his place
and to know
him.

The end.

Amen ( :

Thursday, July 10, 2014

The Embers

Wheels turn
and a fire burns
poof
in comes the air
to get it from here
to there
flames touching the roof
and like paper
the embers twinkle and glow
until all you know
is the walls crumbling slowly
orange
and then black
and in comes the slack

crash

so is my time with that
with wedding
with house
with all
with trying my best not to fall

and all the while stumbling
and huffing
and choking
but some how smiling
and laughing
and joking

a light at the end
to marry my friend
and know that it was worth
every ember

and all these things I will hardly remember.