The General

I cannot tell you fully the beauty of this song to me.

It is amazing how a tune can take you back. Back to a car on the way to the beach with new friends that you imagine will be with you the rest of your life. Even though your imaginings don't come true, it is still magical to relive that newness on your lips and the filling of your heart as if you are still in that forest green jeep singing with all of the oxygen in your lungs.

Dispatch sings,"This fight is not worth fighting."

How often do I feel this way? Downtrodden as if I can't move forward. With whisperings of his name, or my shortcomings, or unresolved and undirected feelings, it is easy to fall into a pit of self pity. But what I have learned in this time of healing is just that, to truly be we have to accept the feelings we have and then process them so that we can keep them or drop them.

I choose to drop this.

The humor is that in an exhausted, migraine, emotional beat down state that this magical song would play. Very funny, God. Thank you. In honor of this throwback song, I choose to be excited and sleep off the pain threatening to break my skull in half.