If I know...

When it happened
my jaw dropped
my eyes dried up
and all of the world stopped

and on hopped, the devil
saying "isn't this level?
exactly what you wanted for
here is your stop
there is no more on top
no hope for the world in you
and so do as I do
and follow what I say
if you want to just feel
real
today"

and so I fought and I fought
but deeper I sank
as if it weren't enough
and in the darkness I sat
and I had trouble thanking God for that

He opened a world
full of opportunities and hope
but I sat in a corner
trying to cope
cope without the one
I had thought
with which the rest of my life had been brought

a story
I've told o'er and o'er
but soon must stop
before it puts me to ruins
and keeps me from following
the God I once loved so much
and yet I know him more now
if I just look up or out or in
despite my mark
my horrible sin
that you have washed away
singing," his blood hasn't failed me, yet,
hasn't failed me yet,
this much I know, that he loves me so"
and if I know just that
well no longer can I don this dark hat
but in freedom I must cast it off and see
the beauty surrounding me

a gift of grace
in the perfect place
filled with purpose
and propriety

there is love in this great city yet!