It's funny how questions come and go and somehow pick just where you don't need to pick a scab is finally healed and the skin beneath it healing and off it is ripped, you are tripped on your face, face to face with the thoughts you had long walked over and passed only to be thrown in your face- part of your present and not just your past. But God steps in, in the ways of conversations, convicting you to change, a change in the Spirit that you now listen to and want to know, how, and why are disappearing as yes is put in place, to trust and to do. A long ago choice to not drink a drop for the sake of making good choices when surrounded by guys after the heart break of the one I cared so much for, but now in my strength I choose that again because I know that it is one of those things, that distracts, and detracts from my heart and mind and tonight as I look at the events- I see you, I see purpose, I see and feel you moving and how you put us on guard, it's not about catching a guys eye but about protecting your friends hearts and bodies as guys try to come on and they give that grimace and you grab their hand and give them a twirl, it's about reassuring them that they are the most wonderful girl knowing in your heart that is true, if only they really really knew and God I am so glad that you had me be there today and to go through these horrible things of working through a past and breakup just so I could say, this is normal and okay, you are loved and worthy and it just wasn't right, please hold on tight, big hug and squeeze, prayerfully please, God, let her know your love now and forever.
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What I would do without you I don't know, thank you for each step taking me further and closer to you.
In your name-
Amen.
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